July 24 - Day 40

It breaks my heart over and over to watch the "one man whom my soul loves" suffer and unable to communicate. Dean's mom calls him, "the communicator" of the family. He had a special way of communicating his thoughts, beliefs, logic, reason, and ideas which fascinated me! This was one of the many wonderful qualities that attracted me to Dean. We talked about everything under the sun and left no stone unturned. Over the past 40 days, he has been unable to communicate one word with us and this makes it hard to know how we can help him. We keep on praying as we wait upon the Lord! Therefore will the Lord wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the Lord is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him. (Isaiah 30:18)

 In Hebrews 11:27, we read how  Moses endured as seeing him who is invisible. We are enduring with God's help even as Dean's high fever has persisted since early Monday morning through tonight as he shivers, sweats, twitches and expresses pain. Dean is my hero and the most valiant man I know! He is my prince charming, courageous warrior and knight in shining armor! We thank the Lord that he still breathing on his own! Dean is on three antibiotics to treat the bacteria growth in his lungs while we are waiting for results from his sputum cultures. The consolidation in his left lung is breaking up with help of breathing treatments, extra deep breaths from the ambu bag, humidifying, suctioning and his strong cough. They also put him on a heart medication to help with his elevated heart rate; it appears to have helped. Dean hasn't been active the past few days due to his pneumonia.

A poem from Streams in the Desert by L. B Cowman

Strange and difficult indeed
 We may find it,
But the blessing that we need
Is behind it.

Great faith is exhibited not so much in doing as in suffering . -Charles Parkhurs


The Lord reminds me of this truth:

For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18) 


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